unlearn
what you thought was right and true
what is truth
what’s the use
of making all this noise
become the silent voice
the silent void
is Truth
in its essence
it is all one, presence
there is no eye
in the apple
does this mean we can’t be
does this mean we can’t be that family
we so wanted to be
have you realised
that what you asked of me
from the beginning
was to let go
of you, and that us
we had created in our minds
to let go of our attachment, our fear
in order to fully trust
maybe someday
when lessons are learnt
challenges conquered
all we are left with is the loving source
of what we had and still have and can still have or could have had, depends
on God’s will
it will or would have when and if it will
if there is even anything to ‘have’
I feel the call
I leave it all
up to the heavens
as I ground my being
inbetween, in the middle
into stillness
into my calling
stripping it down
layer by layer
leaf by leaf
petal by petal
this human you are so human
I take you down from the pedestal
I made for you
with my tears
out of love, but out of fear
of not being enough
for you to sit on your throne
and decide for me with your index finger
because I was lost or I thought I was
you did as I pleased
my little strands of hair
weaved into the image
of lack
you felt like gold
bitter cold sweet
drops of heaven
too precious for me to hold
and cherish
I could not
hold your burning flesh
with my tender skin
felt like hell’s burden was my karma
you are no longer here
yet you are
always
here
we are
so free
you and me
are not
who we thought
but who we feel
as presence, essence
of oneness
no loneliness
no helplessness
no hopelessness
only grace
amaze me
with your wild calm
patience
– Solstrauman
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